0
comments
2
comments
Day: Tuesday, Feb 19
Year: 2008
Time: 3:15 pm
Number of people who've told me they dont care about whatever it is that I'm saying: 3
1 comments
I am never, ever going to find another human being male or female that is passionate about the things that I'm passionate about and in the way that I'm passionate about them. OR even remotely similar. The sooner I realise that, the better it's going to be for me.
0
comments
This past week has been an absolute delight. I've never been happier sitting in my room with a sketchbook , amid scores of brushes and tubes of paint. Never mind that my room smells of soy-based solvents and drying paint. I even snuck in a couple nights worth of wonderful ... sweet, sweet slumber. Never mind that there is a world of work waiting for me on the other side of this week. I made a conscious decision to shut down and turn off the world .. come what may. The results so far have been wonderful.
Anybody that makes something out of nothing will revel in the spontaenous imagery that floods a clear, illuminated mind. It's as simple as turning the light on. Simple never meant easy though. I've regurgitated more creativity in the past 5 days than I have in all my years collectively. I suppose that it was just there waiting... I just wasnt quite there.
I can't imagine how or why I'd go anywhere without my sketchbook. Thats probably why I havent been able to hold on to images and ideas. Frusciante explained it well when he talked about Hendrix almost making his guitar a part of his being. Somehow that just spurns the creative juices to spill right out of your soul. Most of what I did within this week probably wont ever be seen by anybody but me simply because its right out of my heart and mind and intensely personal. Still, its a treasure trove to me. It's almost like spring cleaning your psyche to make room for more.
3
comments
A few days ago I was killing time on a facebook group called "I tried to spell God and it came out Incubus" and I saw the funniest picture in the world with what are probably the funniest captions EVAR. Here are the top 3.
3)Brandon: who the fuck is this and why is he touching me?
Jared: photo op!!!
2)What's-his-face from AFI called...he want's his eyeliner back
Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd #1
"Jared Leto is responsible for global warming!his eye liner absorbs 80% of the suns heat which intern radiates out and warms the earth. Fucking asshole... :-P"
Pardon me while I go laugh myself into a frenzy.
Ps: I love you Melinda
2
comments
I used to think size mattered. Big was beautiful. I grew up in a spectacularly small country and the big city, the big corporation, the big university alll sounded deliciously inviting. Anonymity, anarchy, freedom. Now I realise it can also mean isolation. Now i understand the scores of social commentary that focus on those who fall through the cracks of this behemothic society. It's a kind of one-size-fits-all society that forgets about the odd ones.
Perspective is great. When my sister enrolled in college, I wasnt the happiest person. I wanted her to be a part of this sprawling university sub-culture that I was so proud of. Then in the summer time, when I had nowhere to live and a month to find my sister a place for when she came... I was shocked by the unconditional support I got from this college I didnt want my sister to enrol in. Consider that in contrast to my own school where I cannot even seem to get a long scheduled appointment to come to fruition. I've been banking on this appointment all month, only to be told the day of, that my counsellor is "sick". It wouldnt be the first time and it will not be the last time. Good thing I'm not destructive enough to stop trying. What about those who are?
2
comments
Shitload of work almost done.... t-7 hours to freedom. I feel good.
Jus' sayin' I plan to watch a whole bunch of Incubus concerts and illegally downloaded movies for 48 hours ATLEAST. Forget that, im gonna paint......and watch the concerts. YUS!
Why did I never pay attention to Incubus before? They are so freakin' good! Light Grenades is an awesome album! Brandon Boyd is very nice to look at. He has one heck of a voice. There must be somethign about lead singers with wicked tattoos and very few shirts. Again, why did I never pay attention?? Well I am now. Muahahaha. Goddamit, Anthony! you take up ALL my affections.
=)
Currently on a perpetual MP3 loop - in order of preference atm
Dig - Incubus
Anna Molly - Incubus
Love hurts - Incubus
Pardon Me - Incubus
Stellar - Incubus
Battlestar Scralatchtica- Incubus
I miss you - Incubus
Earth to Bella I - Incubus
If i turn into another
Dig me up from under
What is covering
The better part of me
2
comments
I dont believe in destiny. I dont believe that there is a pre-destined role out there for each of us to fulfill. I believe in choice.
"It is our choices, Harry"*
So maybe thats why I feel morose. I believe in doing and Im not doing anything with my life. What's funny is that im acutely aware of it and yet I can't seem to fix it. That's got to be pure misery. Incapacitation is misery.
The mind is like a rainforest. Well mine anyway. It rains and rains and rains. There are tall trees that block out the sun and somewhere underneath it's teeming with life and creepy crawlies.
* I just had to.
PS: This one I did paint, Chach
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
